Journal

9/9/25>September arrived and I couldn’t be happier. The heat is dying down for the most part and I’m just ready to freeze my ass off in the Winter, better than roasting in the heat to be honest. Mom went through her uterus removal operation-no cancer thank God-and she’s been doing good as far as I can tell. Sore, but she’ll be okay. My head’s been doing good, a bit cluttered but I’ll be fine. Nothing a little Veggie Burrito won’t fix. My foot’s been acting up-Plantar Fascitis doesn’t play around.

9/10/25>I slept like a baby. Went to bed at 9PM and woke up at 8AM. I barely remember what I dreamt about to be honest. I feel refreshed though so that’s a win.

9/10/25>School and I always had a love-hate relationship, but after I graduated, things seem easier. Real Life doesn’t mess around, sure, but I’m not so miserable and wishing for Summer. Felt like a prison. Anyway, it made me think about how people can change and what they really can turn into, good or bad or mid.I write this now because I realize how much time has passed. I don’t think about how long it’s been and it kinda messes with me for some reason.It’s odd. I was at this little restaurant and I was waiting for my food with my friend. We couldn’t find a table so we sat at the bar instead, we’re old enough anyway so it didn’t matter and besides I was never a drinker or a smoker. At the bar we got soda and got us a menu. One of my old friends worked and she and my more recent friend had a bit of tension between them. I wasn’t sure why at the time. Anyway, her boyfriend came out of the bathroom and him and my recent friend did not really get along.Remember, this was my first time hearing about this AND my first time meeting this boyfriend.To say I’ve been out of the loop would be an understatement.Either way, it was tense. It felt like this pit in my stomach grew and the lump in my throat grew. The Chargers game was on and I didn’t know who the boyfriend was at the time, but in an attempt to be more social and outgoing, I showed him the game and it went pretty nice actually. He didn’t know much about Football and I don’t think he cared too much. I told him my favorite team was the Chargers and he just said, “Oh that’s nice” with a nod. I didn’t know who he was and he didn’t care to know who I was. We were just passerbys in some restaurant that had amazing steak burritos. I was on my phone after that and about a minute passed before I got a text from him, basically telling me that we needed to move to a different table and him and the boyfriend and my old friend had beef. In between, I sat right there and unsure what to do other than keep to myself and stay quiet with my head down. I know I call myself the Middleman because of how I can easily get in between groups and how isolated I am as a person, but this was a bit off-putting and I wondered if it was really the beef that made me unsure or the fact I was so hungry which compelled me to stay. We ate our food but this drink my friend loved was off with its aftertaste and it got him a headache as a result. He has terrible heartburn problems and I was getting worried he would have an attack-he didn’t thank God. My old friend’s mom and sister are absolute sweethearts. They were awesome as far as I can tell. The sister I didn’t say a word to but I did shake her hand when my friend introduced us-yes, I smiled and gave a good firm shake like a gentleman. Still it was just a rough time but the tacos were delicious and the Root Beer was good as usual. Still, it made me think a lot. Typically, I’m just an outsider and nobody really talks about me even if I talk to them because I’ve been off the radar for a long time and I have been a shut-in. I don’t talk to anyone that much but it’s not exactly because I’m introverted, it was because everyone left and I was sort of stuck in my room and helping out with chores and doing my thing. Things haven’t changed all that much, honestly. I guess I was meant to be this way but I don’t know and I couldn’t really tell you even if I knew since it’d be as simple as, “Things happen”. Anyway, it was an odd restaurant experience. Kinda tense for sure. Definitely not ideal.

9/10/25 7:03PM>I’ve been trying to configure this site and it’s been a bit of a struggle. I’m gonna keep it to one page and one page only. Journaling helps for sure. I’ve been watching Wesker and Friends recently and I enjoy it a lot. The ‘Back to School’ videos are pretty solid and the videos actually have a plotline. I love the Fast Food videos, man they’re just entertaining, and I love familiar videos I can rewatch over and over again. So good. Linus Tech Tips is a fantastic source for that. Keeping it one page will probably hurt the site but I don’t care too much. I’ll just update this one page. No biggie.

9/11 12:39PM>Today’s been amazing so far. A bit hot but it’s not nearly as bad as before. Been trying to lose weight. Tried to get up early and take this shake I ordered on Amazon and it didn’t exactly pan out because I’m a heavy sleeper. Despite having trouble sleeping sometimes, I sleep like a baby. Not much happening right now but it is frustrating how my genetics ruin my opportunities to get that shake early in the mornings. Oh well. It happens, I suppose. Constipation has been a recent problem though. Not fun.